I agree, Licketysplit. There were two conversations that have the same theme. One was the fact that I leave thinking she's frustrated. I asked if she could tell me that no matter how frustrated she may get, it won't change our relationship. Then, I told her how much it meant to me that she cares and I felt like a child but wanted her to tell me again.

In both instances, she said I need to experience it. In reference to the frustration, she said that if she says she won't be frustrated, that I probably won't believe it. I will have to experience it to know that it won't change things. And, she's right. If she said I promise I won't, I would probably keep asking "are you sure".

I guess the same applies to the caring. She doesn't want me to get dependent on asking her to say it. She wants me to realize and feel it through our interactions. Brown Owl, I think you're right. I see it in our interactions, her eye contact and she hugs me at the end of sessions.

I just had a realization. I told her one time that I knew my mom loved me but she never acted like it. She wasn't affectionate, didn't listen, wasn't there for me, etc. So, I probably don't need it verbally as much as through actions. It was the actions I missed from my mom so maybe my T. knows this and that's why she's focused on my realizing it through HER actions. Just like she said - My mom SAID she loved me but I never felt it. Epiphany!