I am starting to get really down about this.
As a child i was abused emotionally by my mum, and sometimes by my dad.
I was then groomed by a friend of the family.
Early teens i met someone, fell pregnant at age 15 and was abused by him physically and emotionally for 5 years.
I was also witness to his mother being abused by his father.
I got out, moved back in with parents and suffered further emotional abuse.
I had two children with him and my oldest was very difficult from a young age.
I know my age,my mentality and my emotional wellbeing all played a part.
A few years pass and i wind up in a relationship of a narcissistic manipulator. Another 5 years of my life. That was very hard as i spent my whole time trying to help hjm, not realising it was all his tactics of control and manipulation.
I had therapy and done the freedom programme.
It went well and i thought i could finally turn a corner. I was happy, my kids were happy.
Wrong. My daughter who was preteens by this point, changed. She became my abuser! Verbally, physically and emotionally. She was taken out of my care due to safeguarding my other children, herself and myself.

Now, my oldest son is starting to be quite controlling. He doesnt want me to go places, he refuses to do things knowing it is going to affect what i am planning. He is at this moment in time, not speaking to me as i am annoying. I asked him which lady was his teacher,that is all! I didnt nag - not that that should warrant the silent treatment - one simple question.

I am absolutely sick of it. I bwnd over backwards for people and i get treat like utter ****. I wish i could just run away from everything!