i hate group home living, it also, made my symptoms amplified. i don't live in ohio however you could do some research online to find out if what your case worker said is true. you know they're just trying to keep the group home filled, 'cause then everyone gets dollars in their pockets. i don't know you or what has happened to you.

it seems to be a growing trend to threaten patients with state hospital stays, they did this to me as well, i don't take being threatened too lightly and it makes me become aggressive. i am tired of doctors/staff doing this to patients. to me it just seems they are trying to shut us up to take our meds and stand in line and be quiet. "don't question authority", oh bs. i've got plenty of questions, that is what has made my road rough, but i wouldn't have it any other way, i believe in standing up for yourself and others, why should anyone be silenced and told what to do? i've always said "figure it out yourself". i've come along way in my "recovery"; however many would disagree and that is their problem not mine. for me personally, mental health "help" is about self-discovery, knowing yourself and how your own thought process works. it is not about "here take this and shut up and don't ask questions, just take it and be happy". i want to know WHY i am like this, not, "HOW TO MAKE IT STOP". i don't care, it's never going to stop - so i am learning how to live with it. shoot.

for me, i went against all doctors orders. i quit meds, i quit therapy, i got my own apartment in the ghetto (only place i could afford) and i made it work. I MADE IT WORK because i wanted to be on my own. it is hard, i had no mental health support or financial support - just my ssi check, i struggled, i went to food banks and donation bins for clothes, washed my clothes at the local shelter. doesn't matter, i made it work because i wanted to be on my own. my point is, if you want it bad enough, you'll make it happen. don't ever let anyone tell you "you can't"; because thats just keeping you down. anyone can do anything they want to do - positive or negative. it's all about perspective. nothing is ever "that bad".

anyway, i didn't mean for this to get so long, ahah. apologies.