I was talking to my AA sponsor tonight and we were talking about dealing with past abuse issues. She was talking about being abused on the street in New York City and it made me think of something.

When I was in the 8th grade we took a class trip to NY to see a broadway play. I was in a catholic grammer school and very naive. We were standing on the sidewalk and it was sooooo crowded. A man came up and was smiling at me - he wouldn't stop and at first I just kept smiling back. Then I realized he was exposing himself and had an erection. I just screamed and he ran away.

I realized tonight while talking about it that I have always said I hated NY city and I never realized why. This happened when I was 13 and at 42 I'm still saying I hate it when I haven't been there in almost 30 years! I also realized this is when I developed my intense dislike for being in crowds. Never realized where that came from.

It's interesting how things can still unfold........

Tranquility