I agree with everything Rayna said - it was a great post!

I also did not lose everything. I still had a roof over my head, a car, and a job. I did have to claim bankrupcy which was not too great. I also was not a party animal in the bars. I did all my drinking at home.

I would come home from work and immediately go to the kitchen. I would pour two shots of absolute and two shots of kahluha over ice. I would drink about 8 of these a night until I knew I wouldn't be able to get up the stairs if I had one more. I'd crawl up and fall into bed. By the end of my drinking I was waking up with the shakes.

AA has saved my life as well. I am sober a little over 3 years and I have alot of growing to do, but I have hope which I didn't have before.

Do you have a problem? You're the only one that can answer that. Alot of old timers in AA say "Can you go in a bar, drink half a drink and then put the glass down and leave?" Most alcoholics can't do that. I think alot of people get hung up on the term alcoholic. I know I couldn't admit it right away.

The day I admitted I was an alcoholic was after I heard a girl share her story. She drove drunk and killed her friend and a stranger in the car driving opposite her. She was in a coma for a month, lost a leg, spleen, and shattered her pelvis. She did 3 years in prison. I had absolutely NOTHING in common with her, but after hearing her story I realized that it would be me telling that story if I didn't stop.

Tranquility