Ive been in and out of the hospital since I was 14 and all I learned was DBT skills. I try grounding myself and meditating but the feelings of death and self harm over whelm it. I'm in rehab now because all ive wanted to do is drink and smoke. Now ive reached aPoint where if I mess up one more time ill be sent away for the rest of my life. I even overdosed the other week but it just got me deeper in MHA but all I want is out. Death seems most reasonable but I even fail at that.

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