I feel like this aaaaallllll the time, and I'm glad to see someone else does too. I feel like a lot of my childhood was robbed from me and I just want to be able to be myself without the rules put on me as an adult by the outside world. I had kind of a break down today because I recently cut all my hair off and I want to dye it a funky color but knowing I need to get a job soon and all of that I can't really do that and I just got really upset that I didn't feel this way in high school. Like instead of thinking like I do now where I'm like "I'm gonna cut my hair and dye and purple and live and have fun!!!" I was like "I need to study hard, I wish I had more friends, but I don't like to go out and do things because I get anxiety so nobody wants to be my friend"