I have been trying so hard to be positive and encouraging. I can't do it anymore. I have no friends, even on this site. I have no more courage and even less hope. Monday I have to tell my GP I need to see a professional for help. I was finally told today they officially couldn't do anything more for me at physical therapy. My only hope of walking again is with further surgeries and even with those there are no guarantees. I must have been a serious SOB in a past life. The karma is not in my favor and hasn't been for years. My best hope is for the next life. Maybe it will be something simpler... a hummingbird would be nice..