A common feeling for me is that other's feelings are very fake. It feels fake. The meds helped a little but that feeling of nothing is real and everyone is fake is slowly seeping back.I sort of knew the meds wouldn't last forever but I was hoping I could at least have a life for a little bit. I wonder how long I can go and perhaps I can keep going even without the meds.

I gave myself a lot of exposure during this time for my social anxiety.

I feel like a fool sort of and I can't stop trembling. It's a trembling in my core. I'm anxious or afraid or something. I don't know. Maybe upset.

Either way people are becoming more fake again. Maybe my mind always knew they were all fake. Though it also feels as if they are all mischievous and deceitful.

They are all definitely talking about me behind my back. Why does it matter if they are talking about me behind my back? A good question.

I guess I should lay down and go to bed. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten this job.