I wasnt diagnosed until age 43, my life kinda went "splat"

I spent most of my life hypo/manic 95% of the time. Usually just enough under wraps to enjoy my life and stay outta trouble.. but age 43 lots of things happened and I just "broke" So I had to learn how to pick myself up and figure how to go about life, I did the whole "Med Merry Go Round " Was a zombie for a while (bleh) but eventually I learned how to be "okay" again. I do have to pay attention to my Hypo and I can go pretty high , but it can flip into a full mania and those are always ugly hot messes of rage.

So .. I choose to try and hover right above what I consider my baseline. I did adjust "myself" to living in not a constant neon screaming life. but I am not flat, I refuse to be flat. That is no life for me. I have a lot of self awareness "most all the time" but I have people that will poke me and give me a heads up if I start to tilt too much.

Im right now coming outta of a fantastic Hypo that was glorious but got slapped real hard with a gigantic trigger, So a bit of a mess. I am med free by choice and my pdoc is okay , as I cycle on or off meds so no need for ingesting chemicals daily.

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