i have suffered some very significant losses, the most recent the spring before last, when my mother-in-law (and BFF) passed away...i am over the worst of the sleepless haunted feeling nights and the sudden out of nowhere crying jags of the first year, but i still deeply miss her every day and find it hard to shake the sad thinking when it strikes me hard...working on it...

a book i found very helpful after my son passed away in '98 and that i went dug out last spring to see if i could find some lil things in it i could apply to help me over this latest loss:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/...f_Rituals?ac=1

good luck, i hope things ease for you soon