Its been over 2 weeks since I have seen him, and a lot of rare emotions have been spent.

He wants us to go down there this weekend or him to come up on Friday.

I really feel numb about this, I'm really hurting by the fact that last weekend (which was his birthday) he didn't want me around. I really don't know if this was because his sister (well we don't really get on) was down with eight kids had anything to do with it. He said his birthday was very dull.

He says he is sick of fighting and wish we could get back on track. That he can only take one day at a time and only wants me to be happy.

Maybe I have vented to much of my angry on him and he feels helpless to help me, maybe I'm just to demanding...I don't know.

Last night we were going to have a long talk, but he decided to go to "pool and beers" instead, I couldn't contact him on his mobile either.....normally he has his phone on him all the time.

He doesn't like seeing me like this and is worried about my mental and emotion health. He said he knows what he is responsible for and has tried to help me deal with it...but thinks that what ever he does isn't good enough.

I was reading some of the other posts .....the one about what is depression...........mouse hit it on the head for me with............"some say its angry turned inwards" I think this is very true for me and I am so ANGRY on the inside.

How can I cope with this.? How can I make it go away?

Has being angry may me lose my lover/partner/bestfriend.

Would I do this with other relationships..?

Still so confused......at the moment he is coming up Friday to take us all out for tea and spend some quality time together.....only if it is for a short time.

I really don't feel that I can be "with" him at the moment with all this doubt running through my veins.

Thanks
SpringStar