I was talking to my boyfriend about this the other day. It's like when something bothers me, I tell myself to just let it go, but I can't because it feels better to go through this whole rollercoster. You'd think I'd hate doing it, being mad, then sad, then defeated, then mad again. But if I don't do it, if I just "let it go", I feel like I didn't work hard enough to figure it out? Like I have to do all of this to feel better even though it hurts. It's very confusing.