hey,
i've been recovered for about three years now...at the acute stage i decided not to be anorexic anymore b/c i did not want to be admitted to hospital and i did not want to die. really, i just decided i had better things to do and the anorexia was getting in the way of that. of course, there is a whole lot that goes on once the weight is put on and this presents a problem for a lot of ppl in being able to let go completely. i think what enabled me to let go completely was facing up to the issues that caused the anorexia and other mental health issues in the first place and working thru my feelings, rather than using anorexia and the like as a distraction from the real problems. i hope this helps, all the best in ur recovery