I have the diagnosis of Cptsd and yes, I am very familiar with anxiety and somatic issues. I recently came to realize that I've had these symptoms my whole life off and on, but because I left home and created a healthy life for myself, and enjoyed a relatively symptom free few years, I did not realize the impact that my childhood really had on me. I'm still overwhelmed when I begin to think about the gravity of my losses. What I hate the most is the fact that my body never relaxes, lets it guard, down, or feels safe. I go through different physical sensations all day long... I'm relatively calm at home, but when I go to my daughters school to pick her up I'm carrying all this fear and anxiety... It's as if I just don't feel safe, and I don't know how to. Everywhere I go I think about what I can do to manage myself while I'm out there... It's exhausting. It's the worst part, the somatic issues, because I have no control over them...