i don't believe i have alters or if i do, i don't name them/know them. i have no farking idea. i'm more than sure i have depersonalization/derealization disorder. i'm sort of scared to get diagnosed with this; i've already been dx'd with schizoaffective disorder. yeah, i'm ashamed of my mental illness, it makes me feel weak. i will convince you nothing is wrong with me and yet that is how i feel, that nothing is wrong with me. but i have millions of input telling me that something is severely wrong with me - why. i don't know. i feel fine. i really just want to know what is "wrong" so i can "fix" it, "cope" with it. i'm so confused that everything is beginning to make sense. HAHAHA.
the real big problem is i don't even care, i am just curious.