I've had my Bipolar 1 Diagnosis for about 2 1/2 years now. Staying on my meds has always been a struggle for me. I take abilify, I went from 5mg to 20mg (10, then 15, now 20) after I had a pretty scary manic episode.

The medicine makes me incredibly fatigued, I have no energy to workout, I only leave my bed to go to work. I was also incredibly depressed.

I stopped my meds about 2 weeks ago and I finally feel "better". I'm working out every day. I'm not nearly as depressed. I have been getting angry a lot quicker. That's the only downside i've seen so far.

I do realize that by being unmediated I risk, hurting myself, ruining friendships, and possibly being hospitalized again (I've done one round of inpatient, and one round of outpatient therapy). But, I feel like that's a risk I want to take. The mania feels so good, and without it i'm just "regular".