I am new to this site and I thought it would be a good place to get some answers. I am a freshman in college and have felt somewhat sad since 8th grade. That was definitely normal at the time but it hasn't worn off. In the past year and a half it has gotten worse, but it was always a manageable kind of sadness that I can put out of my mind to go about my very busy days. Recently I had a really important exam that I failed and since then I felt something in me change. I feel as though the manageable sadness I have had for a while has just become full fledged. At times I feel suicidal but I know that there are people that would be really upset if that happened. I'm not really sure why I feel like this, but mental illness is present in my immediate family. I feel fatigued most of the time and try to drink a lot of coffee to give myself energy. Its really hard for me to get motivated and I want to stay in bed all the time. I talk to a therapist but Im not open enough about my feelings for her to actually know anything I don't think. I don't have low self esteem but I am just plagued by how shallow people are. I am overly empathetic and feel hopeless about the world's problems. That's just a little description of what's going on. Im just not really sure what to do.