hi ellieh
you are not the only one. my sister abused laxatives for a long time with her ED and it totally messed up her system. it got to where her intestines could not function correctly on their own. this is what happened to her.

my sister died a year ago. she battled eating disorders most her life. she was normal weight most of her last years, probably the last eight. only really thin about six years but she had done so much damage to her body her intestines couldnt function normally and kept getting blocked and she would have to have repeated surgeries to remove the blockages and parts of her intestines and the scar tissue. it got to where her stomach would bloat up because she could not digest her food and she had to pump it out of her stomach after she ate. she would be so weak she had to use a walker to walk. she was constantly in the hospital because her potassium levels were so low. she was always near death. and then she was finally dead. her body just couldnt handle the stress any longer. she was sorry in the end that she had abused herself so badly but there was no going back. it was too late for her. please, learn from her mistake. she was only 49. i miss her.

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