hi oblivion
i am curious as to what it is about this relationship that has caused all those around you to jump ship? it would seem that they may have been trying to communicate danger signals to you and you have been ignoring them so they decided they wont bother with you anymore. just a hunch since you said this is why your closest relative and you fought and ended the relationship. your obssessive worry could definitely put a nail in the coffin in this relationship. i have a technique for unwanted thoughts. i have a technique i use for unwanted thoughts. i have a door at the front of my mind and one at the back of my mind. the thoughts come in the front door and the only attention i give them is to notice them long enough to escort them out the back door. they are like clouds drifting through. i do not become attached to them, the only thing i think in my head is "thats it, out the back door". i will even visualize the thought being thrown out of my mind like a bouncer throwing a drunk out of a bar.

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