You're welcome.

Since my issues are mainly revolving around narcisism, or let's say we all have it, but some of us (me) have bigger wounds, so if you find yourself in this with thing like:

(killing) other family member's happines with envy and anger,
hard staying with them for them is you are pulled away to your own plans,
having hard time feeling compasion when needed because of false image and fears,

here are some of the antidotes, in the following talk. By listening to her voice you get flooded with loving kindness already, so you don't even have to listen to the content

Dharma Seed - Michele McDonald's Dharma Talks

Tara's voice work the same way:

Dharma Seed - Tara Brach's Dharma Talks at Aloka Vihara