Crisis team have been good... trying their best. It's a weird situation as I don't want to go to hospital, they know I don't want to go to hospital (it's covered all over my notes as well) and are trying to do best by me in this regard... but my wife is voicing concerns (and I fully understand why) so her opinion does count in this.

Had one hell of a 'oh ffs' moment earlier though

trigger - self harm



They are visiting again tomorrow.

As it stands right now, I really don't know what's best for me... hospital last time was not ideal... but it kept me safe (esculated a break down at same time though)

I think I'm starting to lose the plot again... and it's surreally scary and comforting all at the same time (however perverse that might sound)