Planning to move out when you live in a group home can be mentally scarring. Everyone's against me. The staff, my therapist,my case worker, and now even my nurse practitioner. The one guy I thought I would have to fight on this who quite frankly doesn't seem to give a damn is my pdoc.I like him he let's me do whatever I want usually.
My friends are all for me moving as long as I'm lonely and don't let my boyfriend come live with me, but they are a little afraid of him. I'm not. I'm madly in love.
He's away for awhile and I'm so lonely it physically hurts. I have schizoaffective disorder and my hallucinations have been worse with him gone. He somehow keeps them in check. I have been highly depressed to the point of thinking of hurting myself. I have supportive friends and the number to crisis care but sometimes it's not enough you know?
Sometimes I get so tired of living I think it would be better to be admitted to hospital. But then I think, will that effect my move?, will they make me eat? I've been told I could go to state hospital. Is it true? Then the same questions as above. I spent most of today trying to sleep. In fact that sounds like a good idea. Bye