I just transferred to a boarding school after coming from public school. At my old school though by no means popular, I had a few friends I could hang out with since I had known everyone since elementary school, but I didn’t really feel close to any of them.
I was hoping to make close connections at boarding school but I’ve found it extremely difficult. Everyone has really set groups and I’m finding it really hard to break in. I’ve already been here for a couple months and haven’t made any friends so whatever advantage I had by being new and intriguing has worn off and I’m really afraid I’m not going to make any friends here.
I spend almost all of my time outside of classes and sports by myself and it’s really starting to get to me. Mostly because it’s really hard to do anything on campus without a group of friends. Most of the activities force you to pre-register with a group or are otherwise just really awkward to do by oneself. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety before coming here but since I’ve been here, it’s gotten a lot worse. I frequently have panic attacks, I spend almost night crying in my room, and I rarely eat because I hate the looks people in my classes give me when they see me sitting by myself.
People here are pretty nice, but I feel like I have nothing in common with them. Most of the kids at the school come from very rich conservative families whereas I am a closeted-bisexual scholarship student. I feel like it will be impossible to make friends now because it's so clique-ish at the school and people probably think I’m weird and I can’t even go to events to make friends and I just... feel so alone right now.
Any advice??