Hey fellow sufferers,

I have a diagnosis of Borderline, Avoidant and Dependent Personality Disorder...

Recently my DBT therapist abandoned me.

It has been 5 weeks since this happened. I was hospitalized for several weeks and now I am avoiding movies, television, video games, music, stores, etc. I am having emotional reactions to things in my environment that pertain to my therapist; like her favorite colors or even her name... I can't enjoy anything because my therapist is constantly in my head, I have images pop into mind - of moments in our final session when she abandoned me - specific looks she had on her face, things she said, etc. Emotions come pouring out whenever I think of her. Anything that relates to sex triggers me and I walk away - I don't even want to leave my house.

This is really bothersome. I would understand if this falls under being a form of loss or grief - but it really is getting bad.

I returned to my DBT clinic the other day and I am in the process of being assigned a new therapist - and even being in the same building was hard for me. I don't dare look towards my ex-therapists office and anytime a female laughed I would cringe and be tempted to plug my ears. Running into her in the hallway would be devastating and I know it would cause me panic.

Does this stuff sound like a form of PTSD? I have a funny feeling that I may have been traumatized by this recent abandonment (it was bad).

Thanks,
HD