Im in my early 20's and I am a female. When I was in high school, I always had crushes on women who were old enough to be my mother. Coaches, teachers, ect.. I had crushes on girls my age also though. But as i've gotten older, I find myself ONLY attracted to older women. Like 15-20 years older... And who are a little over weight. Not like obese but just, you know, thicker than me. Im attracted to someones personality more so than the way they look. But age is a deal breaker for me. If they're my age, im just not interested. I don't feel satisfied and I dont feel "understood". What the hell? Lot's of people think this is odd...lol. I dont know.

Im not looking for anyone to tell me if it's "right or wrong" to date someone with such a significant age gap. I just want to understand myself and why I feel this way. I guess I feel protected or safe dating someone older. Like emotionally protected. I like to have somebody I can lean on who understands and feels my pain. Does anyone here have some time for a small counselling session? What are your thought's? Does this sound like "mother issues"? Am I internally seeking a mother figure?