This is a SUPER horrible thing to type but even worse to dream. I have been having sleep and dream problems lately but last night it got really bad and confusing for me. As night is here again, i am afraid to go to sleep and have another one.

Has anyone with past csa had a dream where you as the adult had a child do the bad things? I KNOW there is NO desire in me for anything close to this as my life is about helping kids that have been hurt. I am scared of it now though because I just started realizing i told my t about the dream in a text earlier and now i wonder if it might mean something bad to him and he could think differently about me now.

Someone with past csa tell me this has happened before please and means something ok.