Finally starting to get some relief after eight days on prednisone. Had two close calls when i thought i was going to need to call an ambulance, but managed to get my peak flows crawling up with massive doses of ventolin. Have had the shakes all week.

Struggling to breathe is bad enough, but waking in the night struggling to breathe triggers the bejeezus out of me. Ended up on the 'phone with crisis at 3.30am one time 'cos i couldn't get my anxiety level down enough to go back to bed.

Feel fragile. Mental health is shaky, physical health is shaky. And easter is nearly here, which is bringing up so much childhood garbage i can't think straight.

At least i should be 'fine' enough to make it to work tomorrow. Just the routine and distraction will help get me out of my head and body some, which is good 'cos i really don't want to be in either.