Thank you to everyone that has welcomed me to the community.

Sorry for the abrupt post. It was the only way I could do it at the time. You know just rip the bandaid off in one quick go so as to minimize the pain.

Did it work? Not really. All I feel is sick - bad - sad for saying the things I have. If there where some way of taking it back, I just might think seriously about doing that. Not that it will in anyway change the past, or what I'm going through.