Its definitely work, but in this case, its easy work and sooo worth it. I'm just still learning about him. I remembered back when I was a kid, and my parents didn't really talk until after dinner. So duh, when he gets out of work and is hungry, its not the best time to talk about something important that I need him to remember lol.

I've also learned that if he's distracted, I either need to alert him that I need his full attention or just let it slide.

What I learned last night is that I am so much more relaxed and have more fun with him when I'm not in my own head telling myself things that aren't true. My magic magnifying mind tells me all kinds of crazy things that make my insecurities flair up.

Last night he was sitting next to me like always, but he started stroking my shoulder. Just the touch made me horny but I didn't know if it was going anywhere. Then we were laughing and talking and he kissed me and kept kissing me and aaaaah it was nice lol.

I need to just keep reminding myself that this is a new relationship. This is also the first mature relationship I've been in. Its also the first real relationship I've had since I've been sober. So there's still a lot to learn and I need to remember that its not going to be perfect over night.

I can't even believe the growing I've done since I've started seeing this man. Its pretty amazing!