Tomi,
I think you may be right on the symbolism dream. I hadn't thought about it which is odd because I usually do like trying to figure out what the subconscious is trying to get through to me. I have a dream journal and I tell my therapist my dreams sometimes. They are a valuable asset. Sometimes though they are just disturbing.

Angela,
I am trying to find those tools. Not too successful right now though. I feel...hmm...every word I can think of to discribe how I feel is not appropriate for the forums. Guess today isn't my day. Sigh.

Oh Dear WiseWoman,
I am in a bit of pain. It wouldn't be so bad except I keep being told by people how they want me to be happy. I could ignore most of them but one of them is my husband. How can I not please my husband? If I cut then I can put on the appearance of happiness which will make him happy which will give me the peace of mind that he is happy so that I don't have to worry about him leaving me.

Yeah, I know it is stupid. I need to feel my feelings and trust that he is here for the long haul but old habits die hard. I am trying.
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