I don't know the answer about the state hospital, but in reading your post I see you as very depressed. Maybe the others are right and you are not ready to be on your own if it means that you will be alone. It sounds like you might be safer in the group home. Maybe it would be better to wait until your boyfriend was back at home to support you emotionally.

However, if you are considering hurting yourself then the hospital would be a safe place for you to be.