pinksoil, I'm so sorry. ((((hugs)))) Do you have any strategies for fighting depression besides meds? Can you mobilize those now? Every little bit helps.
For some meds, too much can make one depressed. You have to find just the right amount for you. So maybe that is why your pdoc has asked you to try decreasing your meds.
For me, one thing that really helps me in fighting a depression relapse is to understand what is causing it. Do you know why you are depressed again?