I can identify with some of what you write. I had nine months of therapy (stopped about a month ago) and by the end of it was sobbing most days ( before therapy I only cried rarely, usually when watching sad films etc), and my motivation in life was diminished. I usually do a huge amount of stuff every day, but I found time slipped and I seemed to procrastinate and spend some time doing nothing. I'm feeling better now I have stopped, but I'm compelled to try again as there were good things about the therapy too and I think that if I'd had a T who was amenable to adapting the way we worked together I would have felt different. Do you have faith in this T? Does it feel right?