Was looking at friends' pics on Facebook this morning and it's hitting me like a ton of bricks just how much I have lost because of the stbx. Friends, career, jobs, money, my house, my good name, self-respect, my confidence, my ability to interact with people without crippling anxiety...
One of my best friends in the world is getting married and my other best friend is her bridesmaid and I didn't even know.
Fuccking Basstard stole my life and I didn't even see it happening.
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'...
At poor peace I sing
To you strangers (though song
Is a burning and crested act,
The fire of birds in
The world's turning wood,
For my sawn, splay sounds,)
...'
Dylan Thomas, Author's Prologue
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