Are you tired of me? I have so much to tell you but I don't feel like I can talk about it anymore. I want you to bring it up because I'm not brave enough to do it. I want you to notice it and make questions. I want to cry desperately in front of you like I do wen I'm alone and can't stop, instead of (almost) always looking great. I am cold like a stone. But it is so different inside. Please notice I am stuggling because I can't tell you. Please notice me!