I don't think that I want to be a child again, because I relate childhood with the sense of powerlessness I felt in my actual childhood. But sometimes I really ache to be able to curl up and have someone hold me. Nothing sexual or anything, I just want to be silent and be held. I was just thinking of this today--I know I can't sustain a relationship right now, but there is just such a huge space in my life where one should be. I want to give love to someone who reciprocates. So I get what you're saying...I just don't necessarily want to be a kid again.