I think you need to try to work out what your needs are. Like with the past trauma. What do you need that would improve that stressor? You can't change the past. So what happened will always be a part of you. Do you need for someone to just listen? Reassure you (if you would believe it?)? Help with coping skills for specific symptoms? Help you make goals?

My mom was horrible to me growing up. At 18, she's the one that kicked me out and made me homeless. I worked with my T at the time about her. I told her everything that happened, everything I felt. What helped was trying to look at it from my mom's perspective. Didn't help at first. But I realized that my mom just wasn't capable of being a mother to me. I got myself to the point where the past still hurt, but it wasn't affecting my life. My T then encouraged me to reach out to my mom, telling her the truth about everything. I did, and I gave my mom the opportunity to express herself. We laid down new boundaries one of which was to leave the past in the past. Now, 8 years after confronting her, my mom and I have a good relationship.

Sometimes we can't rewrite relationships like that. Sometimes there is nothing but moving forward. Will delving into your past really be beneficial to you?

I'm don't have any answers or solutions. I kinda just failed therapy, and I'm wondering why this will be beneficial. But for me, I know I improve with therapy. Maybe your T's modality isn't right for you. Or maybe therapy isn't right for you? Or could you be scared of something and running away? Just giving yourself a chance to think things over before making a rash decision.