so after a 6 week inpatient stay, the transition home has been harder than I'd hoped. Bf was looking after my house and animals but the place is a pigsty and I'd hoped to come home to a clean stress free environment. So now I need to tackle the house chores, rearrange the house to better help my morning routine, start work and clip my horse to get her ready for states, finish my uni assignments, work out problems with my landlord and workplace and get into a healthy routine. I totally overdid it in the weekend so I am exhausted and flat today but have so much to do. I'm trying to tackle it one job at a time and meditation has helped me not get over whelmed but I acknowledge I am already struggling and have come back here for understanding support.

At least the meds are right and although I hate bein on so many at least I am stable and free from ocd and the depths of depression. My bf is very understanding but I don't want to lugg all of the chores on to him.

After 6 wks in a safe cool stable environment it's a shock to the system to come home to the heat and physically I am very weak. Bf says to look after myself but I can't sit in that house when it is such a mess with so much to do. 6 hours to go til he is home from work and I'm able to ask for help with the cleaning. Just feeling like I've failed before I have even had a chance to adjust to outside life.