When I first started seeing him I was really impressed at how caring and in touch he seemed. After a couple of meeting he offered to get my son to come because that's a huge part of my problem. it didn't work out well - the first date he got stuck in a longer than normal court hearing. The second time I had raging pneumonia and was unaware of the appointment till they called - I dragged myself out of my deathbed to go - my son and the "dr" had already been talking for at least a half hour. I didn't stay long because I felt like about as bad as you can and still be walking. I had asked the receptionist (the doctor's wife) to tell them I did not want them meeting without me but she said they already were. I asked her to try to get them to stop and wait for me but I guess she couldn't. The next meeting when I was a little better no one told me about so AGAIN my son was there, just him and my therapist. And when I finally got back it was not my imagination that my therapist was no longer sensitive to me but cold and aloof. Then I find out the next day he has a private meeting with my son - when I asked they said it was about something besides me but I don't buy it. Either way, I think this was wrong, for one thing I feel defensive having been the topic of discussion but with no way to know what was said. The next meeting my son blew me off (but didn't say so ahead of time) said he didn't want to come I guess his 2 sessions with MY psychologist sort of took care of it for him. The last meeting I had with my psychologist he spent the first 15 minutes reading email then he left to go to the restroom. When he returned i told him about my distress and ongoing obsession with suicide. Basically the extent of his input was, as to my son "too bad it has to be that way" and after my having stated that I am closer to an actual plan - he indicated times up and on the way out he said "take care of yourself'.

Its it just me or is there something wrong with this picture. He hasn't made any suggestions to me about what to do or anything positive. Anyway I wrote him later after I got home and outlined my misgivings and told him i would not return and I have heard nothing from him since which is fine with me because now in addition to feeling betrayed by my son, i feel betrayed by someone who was supposed to help me. i don't see having private conversations with my son as helpful - even if it is about something else which I dout, it makes me feel compromised. Is this standard procedure? I suspect not.