Thanks for the idea, I put a call out on fb for some help. Even if someone could help me with the grocery shopping, or stand with me while I clip my horse, or even just come and have a chat it would help. I am very isolated in this house so far from everything and everyone. Thankyou for your support. The lorazepam has stopped the annoying crying and I think having someone care (like you) has been a big help - so thankyou.

I managed to move the wardrobe so I can get to the bed and the bathroom now (kinda a necessity). Now I will try and find something mindful to pass the time until my bf gets home from work.