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Old Mar 30, 2015, 02:55 AM
moriteaparty574 moriteaparty574 is offline
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So I have a boyfriend I have been dating for about a year, he is a genuinely good person and has been very supportive during 2 different diagnoses, loves me very much and wants our relationship to continue. We made the mistake of moving right in with each other after he had just separated from his ex wife (yes i know goofy impulsive decision) and have lived together for nearly our entire relationship. I have financially supported him on more then one occasion due to debt on his part and recently moved back in with my mother to get my finances back on track. I have been here for about a week and my condition and general well being has improved significantly. However, I recently have been put on medication and I am still getting used to it and having my doses adjusted accordingly so my emotions have been an absolute roller coaster. In my moments of clarity (which seem to be few and far between) I have thought about whether or not I need to be in a relationship at this point in my life due to struggles with finances, trying to take care of my mental health, finding a job and trying to get back into school after being absent for an entire year. I feel we have made some mistakes in jumping into things too quickly but I do really love this person and this really hurts. I seem to be cycling really hard between anger, depression and happiness and I don't know what to do. I told him I need some time to make a decision because I don't trust my own mental state and am just at a total loss. Mind you this is the first serious relationship I have had so I guess this is sort of par the course. Sorry for the super long post but my head feels like a war zone right now. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks