I kind of feel with you are going through, but it's not because of anyone in particular. I've been a volunteer firefighter for 13 years, and over the last couple of years I just don't "feel it" anymore if that makes any sense. There has been numerous times that I have considered resigning, but I'm kind of in the awkward position of my father-in-law being the fire chief, my cousin being the assistant chief, and brother-in-law being a captain and not wanting to let them down.