It's a fresh day and I feel a lot better. I'll just kinda journal what was happening last night. It's been on my mind today but not anything that causes distress.

Almost all day yesterday was great! I saw my sisters and we had a good time.
Things started going downhill later in the evening.

One of my sisters kept calling me telling me her boyfriend was drunk and acting irate. Screaming at the top of his lungs, stumbling around with their infant baby. She said he hit her. It went on and on. I was telling her to call the police but she wouldn't.
Later on I did.
However, when they arrived she started lying for him.
I had my mom, the police and my sisters blowing up my phone at 2-3am. The police were asking me all sorts of questions. I was so stressed!
After 4am she calls me and says she and the baby are staying there. The boyfriend did not go to jail.

This same boyfriend beat up my puppy months back. She needed lots of surgeries to help her recover the best she could.

After I hung up the phone with her regarding her still staying there is when I the racing thought started.

I had been trying to help her all night but she wouldn't listen. I told her it wasn't safe for the baby but nothing was getting through to her. I felt hopeless for her.

The entire situation started around 6pm and continued until past 4am. Hours and hours of continued stress that got worse as time passed.

Afterward I became so paranoid he was going to show up and hurt me for calling the police.

I have never had the same exact thought over and over that loud and uncontrollable. I wasn't suicidal and the thought didn't make me so, but it was so over powering that I wanted to scream.

I'm am thankful I have a place to go to talk about this. Last night was my worst episode since I've made an account here.

Thank you everyone who's read this. I've still been thinking about that racing thought. It was a first for me and I didn't know how to cope with it.