Living with bipolar disorder is a daily struggle for me....mainly on the depressive side. Add in mourning my son and I sometimes feel I will drown. Coming up on 1 yr anniversary in May. No idea when I will stop thinking of him every second of the day. Everyone keeps telling me it will get better in time....but it seems to get harder because I miss him more each day. On the other hand there are those that have told me it is time to stop mourning and get focused on the rest of my family (I was taking the best care of my family I could under the circumstances!). The best advice I've heard from those who have mourned is "no one can tell you how to grieve and how long to grieve." I try to remember that, but it is hard when your behavior is being judged, and you are truly just trying to survive day by day.