I am new here. I have been treated for depression and anxiety for 21 years and up until a couple of years ago it was somewhat under control with occasional breakthroughs of deeper depression and anxiety. This past year I have become treatment resistant and the depression and anxiety have taken over my life. I have tried many meds with either no luck or intolerable side effects (abilify). I am now on brintellix. And have started lamictal as an add on. In the early stage of titration so will be a while to see if I get the relief I need from the lamictal. I pray everyday for strength and healing I guess I have some strength to battle for so long but I often feel my prayers go unheard. I have to keep fighting for me and my family but I just feel so hopeless and desperate and pained The emotional pain makes my body hurt all over too which is also hard to handle. I would give anything to start feeling even semi normal!