Hi all.

So this is what happened right after my therapy session few days ago. I was on my way home when my mother called. I have been trying to separate myself from her and have the least contact possible as that is what I need for myself at the moment but decided to answer the phone in case she would think that I'm not ok and would show up to my place. Which has happened before...

So our relationship is not the best, she abandoned me when I was a teenager and after a few years I was living with her again (long story).

She called me that evening to say that she loves me very, very much and that we all (family members (parents are divorced)) should get together and forgive each other. I have no idea where all this came from, my guess is she read it somewhere. I believe my mother is a narcissist and is very manipulative, and is not able to love anybody but at the same time she is interested in healing people. And not because she really wants to help people but because that would boost her ego. After she said she really loved me, she also said that she didn't say it before, when I was child, because she did not want to sound fake. There you go, this proves she did not love me. Even though I knew it, she finally said it herself.

I was analyzing that conversation for a while and it finally hit me. And for the first time in many years it did not hurt as I have been grieving this loss since I started therapy. I even feel a relief that I finally heard it from her.