I hear you...

And your ex sounds like a complete jerk in my opinion.

All I can say is that I have dealt with the same feelings are fears. Am I beautiful? Even if I am, will anyone care about me when I'm not?

The fact is that the only thing that matters is that we love ourselves. As difficult as it is, it's true. Not only is it healthy for us, but the number one thing others find attractive in another is self-confidence and self-assurance. If we love ourselves other people can see that right away.

It's a daily battle and it's so much harder having a mental illness.

Just hang in there. It WILL get better. The seasons change.