I recentely was talking with a friend about the need to be cared by someone special. She also told the same. She said that she wasn't able to conect with someone bc there was something bad in her.

I'm sorry that you are going through the same. Why do you think you cannot conect with people? Did you try it? I know your past experience being neglected has strong consequences in your life but there are people out there who care and are looking for the same as you.

Do you see yourself able to join a social group for any activity or hobby you are interested in?