Hello people, Recently i have opened up to my mother about the situation at home with dad, My Dad has always tried to tell me that my life was perfect and i was brainwashed and thought everything was normal but have recently realized that it wasnīt.
My mom and dad got divorced when i was 7 followed by two years of loud fighting, things breaking and running away with mom several times.
Dad was a very troubled person, he worked ALOT almost 24/7 and was depressed although he never admitted it, he used to snap on small things all the time and keep me and my brothers in hourlong interregations, he used to get
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physical and push us against walls, shake us hard, sometimes hit us, destroy things in the appartment, hit the table really hard, scream, call us things only bullies would say and pay little attention to us, threaten to kill himself, say that he didnīt want us, that he wished we were never born, he used to get drunk sometimes, dissapear in the middle of the night, sometimes be gone until early in the morning.
The appartment we lived in was very small and filled with junk, dust and was in very bad shape, smelling like death, it was broken, dirty etc and me and my brother shared a very tiny room with no windows that was right next to an airvent connected to the balcony where dad smoked 2 packs a day, our room was wall to wall with dads' and he used to bring home
keeping us up until the middle of the night. I have also seen him hit his ex and i have seen emails from her acusing him of
and an email where he confessed.
My brother started doing
and failed school.
My mom was always trying her hardest with a lowpayed job but had her own issues and was usually very sad, walking around crying at night, so she never noticed what was going on there.
Apart from that i had a bad time in school, i was bullied form time to time and
because i was small, scared, insecure as hell and didnīt have nice things, i also only had one friend who was very flaky and used to abandon me.
I know this might not sound like much and probably people might say that i shouldnīt complain but i want your opinion.
I hope someone will answer this, god bless you all.